I realized that I hadn't even mentioned cancer. At least not online...unless you are a family member. I have actually been extremely quiet about a lot of things over the last few years. Some of them are important, some not so much... most of the significant things I have left private. Well...so yeah, I have cancer. No big. I don't even know if I am in remission now, cured, or what, but radiation therapy is stressful enough without writing about it. I am still wondering if I bothered to tell those who needed the information.
Enough! Okay, so some of the most random and interesting things enter my brain - usually late at night or when I am trying to just not think about anything. One thing that I think about is the social structure that we live by...not a big deal, just interesting. I mean, as I get older, I can see the way things have changed, as far as total structure, and how these changes affect the overall structure of society as a whole. Then I thank the Lord that I won't be around to see the final effect. It should be interesting.
Consider it... when was the last time you wanted the man who runs the train to be busy arguing with his lover over a phone that reaches him no matter where he is, and he is about 12 years old and has a mad crush? Okay, maybe not 12 years old, but very young or immature.
So that kind of brings up the idea that I find interesting or at least strangely ignored. Has anyone really thought about how different and truly the same things are? I spent a week in the hospital. I was, in the beginning, septic and dying. The nurses who took care of me at the beginning were somewhere in their 40s to late 50s. They were good. They focused and understood the needs of the job. I did not hear them standing around talking about their personal life. I did not have to wait because they had a personal call that needed to be answered. I only saw their cell phones when they were answering a call about a patient.
Then they finally moved me from the ICU, and everything changed. The staff were between 30 and 40's old - late. They were very different. Unlike the amazing professionals of the ICU, the techs spent more time walking up and down the hall in groups, giggling, texting, and complaining about how much work they had. I had, fortunately, mastered the food system so that I did not actually go without. I had also mastered the "calling my dr" line that made sure that the techs helped me out. My family coming to see me helped a great deal as well. I met my nurses in the morning and saw them again when they were leaving, 9 hours later.
Like I said, a very different world than when I was working as a tech (CNA back then)... and the damn cell phones ... yikes.
Okay, random whining - LOL!
The interesting part is that most young people are completely detached or seem to be detached from the adults or older people around them. I mean detached emotionally. I often feel like a laboratory specimen. The kids watch, copy behaviors or facial expressions, etc., but do not actually understand that their emotional responses are the same as mine.
Okay, truly random! Again, seriously, I need to relax!
Good things in life:
LIFE!
No, really! I have long since realized that I have been blessed in so many ways. I have a child who appears to be happy, which is all a parent wants for them. I have 2 grandchildren - again, they appear to be happy - and 3 great grandchildren (if what I have been told is true), and they are adorable and obviously happy little kids. Super blessings, right!
Until tomorrow, I have the happy thoughts of being treated for cancer that is effective (I will see the doctor tomorrow, and it might have changed).
I am blessed with a family that loves me and knows that I am just a person who has my own issues.
I am blessed with my Reggie (best dog child ever!). I am blessed with my Thor (best little brother dog child ever!).
I am blessed with the job that I have wanted my entire adult life.
Life is good....
How are you blessed?
